No match found...
I can't remember if I was ever this lonely and isolated... I live alone in a house further away of Melbourne. Lockdown after lockdown... I'm afraid my shell is getting smaller and smaller. And it's hard to breathe. Thanks for this website. At least I can type it here hoping that someone will read. Like a message in a bottle...
I want to travel !!!!!
I want out of this country!!! Been way toooo long! Agrh.. I feel angry. Actually I'm angry because I feel trapped. I'm used to think of myself as a free human being. I used to travel when and where I wanted to. What on Earth is going on?? And for how long is it going to last? When is the end...?
So what comes next...
I wish I know whole this circus will last this long, I would have made slightly different decisions year and half ago... Now I'm just thinking - will this last another year or two and I am having some crazy ideas, things I want to do. But like always in my life, I was never sure is the right time. And what will people around me think if I tell them what am I really dreaming about. And the reason I am here is because I have no one else who I can talk to and share my thoughts without a fear of being judged and ridiculed...
Just reading about government's plan B, if we go into another lockdown this winter I am not sure will I be able to cope with that again. All that loneliness, isolation, darkness...
I miss parties
The thing is, I really miss parties. I rarely get out but I do appreciate those once-in-a-month Fridays that last the whole weekend. You go and you dance and you don't stress about your job or think about your ex or anything that bothers you at that moment. I miss a lot of things, and I don't get to see my family and friends as often as I would like to, but sincerely, I miss parties the most.
There was a point during the lockdown where I was talking to my dog...
There was a point during the lockdown where I was talking to my dog more often than to my friends and family. At least he listened and I could tell him everything I wanted to talk about. Some days I thought I was going mad, but then the dog reassured me that everything is fine and I'm not going mental :))
That's a good question - how has it been so far for me? I've lost...
That's a good question - how has it been so far for me? I've lost track of time, friends, family. It's been a long journey. Now when I think about it, I don't know if I am OK or not. I got used to what we have now and can't remember how it was in the 'good old time'. I even stop talking to people about it. Can't talk to my family, they may not understand it and I can see my friends are just going along with the flow. For me, every day looks the same now. Life became an endless routine and I don't know how to get out of it.
They're asking/telling us to go back to work but people are too polite to say that catching a train and going into the middle of the city to sit in an office with 400 people and 3 toilets is a f*****g awful idea. Not worth dealing with them. I think I'm done to be honest
Is this the end of the world?
I am thinking to stop reading the news. For a moment I thought things are kind of getting better in this country, but I am starting to think perhaps it was better in lockdown. At least we were at home, you knew you can't go anywhere and you won't miss anything. Now I see people queuing for petrol, no lorry drivers here in the UK, they say we'll have empty tables for Christmas... and covid is still around, so what comes next? Depressing...
If nothing else, during the lockdown I managed to improve...
If nothing else, during the lockdown I managed to improve relationship with my cat, so we're now best friends ever 😂😂
As difficult as the last year+ has been (very), I will also always remember this year as one in which I have met and connected with and deeply bonded with some amazing and beautiful souls through online trainings and webinars and symposiums. As much as I don't like spending a lot of time online, I am so grateful for the gifts I've received from it!Read more
about lockdown stories
This is a place where we share what we miss the most, we embrace the grief over our losses, we open up about our feelings of isolation, we laugh at our hilarious moments, drop the odd insights gained, recognise hidden blessings, see through the eyes of people who are looking through different lenses. How will we look back at this peculiar time 20 years from now?Read more